im here without myself....
im an empty person....
no heart,no soul,no life.....
an empty person....
because all im doing in life is keep people happy.....
not even once have i thought about my own happiness....
like a zombie i keep doing mindless things just to show respect to people.....
i say what they want to hear,i do what they want everytime just so that no one will be mad at me.....
but its so hard....
at points,i just wanna let go n stop caring about people n just cre about me....
but i cant....
im too afraid...
im a coward....
a big coward to express my feelings.....

u wanna know why there's no title to each of my blog???.....
its because its hurts so much to write that i couldht think of title....
i hate everything,every single thing bout me.....
do i believe in happiness???.....
no....
do i believe in love??....
not a single bit......
i am empty at heart......
no matter with who i am,i feel empty....
this hole in my heart wont cure even the slightest bit.....
it wont.....
and will never ever cure no matter what a person do or say to me.....
im not sttuborn but im just letting my heart cure by itself.....
and if it says it wants a long time to cure then im down with it....
i let it takes as much time it wants even if it takes an eternity to cure....
dont force me.......

it's been a long time.....
i have never been able to find the time to write....
im never quite the good writer.....
words always fail me...
and my problems just keeps adding on and on.....
recently my lappy n my phone got stolen.....
i was devastated.....
but i didnt give up....
i kept searching....
and lucky for me i got my lappy back and 400 bucks for my phone.......
i thought it was over but no....
another problem came to me....
now all of a sudden my roomie is avoiding me.....
i cant seem what i've done to make him mad....
i really dont...
but he seems determined to treat me this way.......
what did i do?????...........
i guess i just have to live with it....