the last one..

the ultimate breakup song for me

my immortal..

'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

the fourth one

the scientist..

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh

here the third one

lips of an angel..

Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying, is everything okay?
I gotta whisper ?cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?

2nd one

better than me

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
And guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were lookin' for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall, you and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend

I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this

here's the first one....

My Happy Ending

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh)

Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they

But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the stuff that you do?

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
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That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it

All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

Songs in my life....

so let's see eh...

everybody has a song to remind them of something....

heartache,broken heart,sad,angry,happy and all that....

so,i decide to post mine...

this next 5 songs is first for the five breakup that has been very hard for me...

yup...

five of them......

Guilt..

my life is so full of guilt...

so much that every night i spend crying..

non stop until i felt asleep...

nobody knows this because i often do it alone...

because i dont want anybody to see

they might make fun of me...

but who care,,,

ive always been make fun of all my life...

i dunno why but thats a fact..

no matter things i did was with a good intention

i still get guilt all over me..

hurm

i wanna die...,

My birthday...

date 8.2.2011...

wow...

never had a celebration b4...

but this year i had it...

thanks to her..

she was the one that made it possible..

i thanks her for..

she did so much...

from mcd to a cake and to a bag...

wow..

I love her..

Yesterday..

yesterday was a happy night...

for the first time i had a date at Putrajaya...

first time weh...

With u my muffin...

thanks...

i had a happy experience...

Love ya

To ANNUR...

thanks for accepting me...

a broken piece of shit...

a piece of unwanted garbage...

a box full of evilness...

u know,during the time when i had to confront so many of your friends

i was scared as shit.,,

i wasnt scared i couldnt answer...

but i was scared it wouldnt be enough,,

and i wouldnt be accepted...

but thats all has been done...

im now beside u and am proud of it..

I LOVE YOU...

mmuah!!!....

New Semester...

fuck...

new sem already...

im not ready...

well,still got to go through it...

during on the way to bangi from ipoh

i nearly had an accident with my dad..

luckily nothing happen and dad was able to control the car..

so,arrive at bangi,register n then went to my rented house with my buddies..

n waiting for a new sem

sheesh....

January....

so start of the new year,,,,

new year already eh?...

whats that to be excited about?

i mean what did i achieve last year to be excited about?...

absolutely nothing...

nothing except the constant sadness that has always been there for me my entire life...

Im a Heart Breaker...

so,to whom it may concern....

this post is meant for you....

this post is to show you...

i didnt meant any evilness...

with tears im typing this so that u know...

please do remember that i didnt lie..

i didnt cheat...

i didnt play...

i left you because i know im not making u happy...

i left you because i know that im a faker

i left u because i dont want to hurt u anymore...

i left u because i know u deserve better than me...

you do...

but you dont see it...

ur blinded by hatred n words...

u fog urself with feelings of evilness towards me...

to you im the most evil person...

nevermind that...

i guess i deserve that...

im so stupid...i wish u would just take my life away...

i never intended for you to hate me...

but then again,im deserved nothing...

keep hating me.....

LAST YEAR.....

so,what happen last year eh?....

nothing much.....

just the same as i keep on sucking myself like always....

i can't remember much as my short term memory loss is getting worse..

so im gonna tell u as much as i could and as short and sweet.....

last post was august..

so im gonna continue with september....

so that month sees me closing on my finals...

me?

still catching on my studies...

micro was hard as hell.....

october...

there was the fasting month i think....

yup...

so not much except me trying to keep my sane as always.,,,

november....

last month of study for my 2nd sem....

finals in front of me....

december....

holidays...

do i think its fun

nope...

never is n never will be....

thats all for last year....